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TIME FLIES!
Friday 18 May 2007
Today it is exactly 2 weeks until my birthday. Part of my is extremely excited and a teeny tiny part of me is dreading it.
I'm dreading it because I don't particularly want to be 23. Normally I dread my birthday because I feel like I haven't achieved much. This year I have achieved heap loads. I got over an extremely painful break up, stayed strong for my family when my Dad died, realised my ambition to move to London, landed not one but two excellent jobs for 2 of the top 10 Investment banks, lived in a room that I shared with 13 random people for a month and enjoyed every second of it, made new friends and finally achieved genuine happiness.
I'm excited because of many of the things I have mentioned above but also because the day after my birthday I start yet another chapter in my life. I am moving into a new flat with new people. I can't tell you how excited I am about it. My new housemates are fantastic people and we get on so well. My new flat is really nice and seconds away from Clapham Common ideal for the summer. I seriously have to pinch myself at times when I think about me now and me a few short months ago. Last year 2 weeks after my birthday my relationship of nearly 2 years with someone I loved so much fell apart and I was a wreck. My family and friend were really worried about me because I wasn't eating and was sobbing all the time. After 2 months of being ridiculous I told myself enough was enough and I was going to sort myself out.
Here I am. Living in London, I have a great job with a fantastic team, I have such great friends both here in London and Southampton (and Basingstoke and Bogner!) with special mention to Silk and Rad who were and are always there for me and I have the best family ever. Not to mention that I'm getting my hair cut by Charles Worthington himself and my boobs are looking pretty amazing! Sorry it was all getting a bit serious!
COMMENTS
Rhys - You know that you still mention Han ALOT even though you aren't together anymore?
Anyhoo
I am just snogging boys - I don't sleep around and I normally stop fancying guys after I sleep with them because they have no clue what to do even if I tell them exactly what I want. Snogging is good. Though even some guys manage to screw that up.
I've no idea where I will be in 12 months and I don't want to know. All I hope for is that I am happy as I am now and I remain the person I am today because I actually like myself.
Posted by: Celeste at May 18, 2007 08:42 AMYou are what you make of yourself honey, you just had to sit up and take notie of what everyone else coudl already see in you and not what you were worried was missing because someone else ha issues.
I'm more proud of you every day and you are a most awesome awesome friend with fantastic boobies!
Posted by: Silk at May 18, 2007 09:27 AMDid someone say boobies? :D
Posted by: Rad at May 21, 2007 04:26 AMRad - I knew you would comment on that eventually!
Posted by: Celeste at May 21, 2007 04:56 AMI'd have hated to disappoint. ;)
Posted by: Rad at May 21, 2007 10:59 AM
A year is a long time. A year ago I had just barely started working in the Bay, just barely knew Han. A year on and I'm sick of the Bay (not of Han though). I feel this 12 months could be important to find out who I am and what I'm like, but that is another story for another time.
Woo to you for finding out what you want from life. I say "What you want from life", really you're having fun and enjoying yourself and 'snogging' (I don't believe it's just that) lots of boys with good friends. We're all too young to settle down, start a family and have a mortgague. So fuck it, live for today, and do stuff (I'm telling myself this as well as you - what's my secret, time will tell!)
Question is, where will you be in 12 months time?
Posted by: Rhys at May 18, 2007 07:04 AM